What do gang stalkers want?

Happening to me 2005 - present. Poisoned by a so called witch breezy .. it's strange too basically told me everything she was going to do before she done it then it happened .it's a big long story . Short story my body consumed a poison that I consumed and even poop and pee the smell of perfume two weeks after.. she also made me watch this homemade film that flashed so many times and I don't remember much in each instance that this trick pulled on me I just remember all the beginnings of each trick done to me…. Like I was drugged and slipped into stages of being between asleep and awake .. I the homemade film was a gorry CREEPY basement made of sinter blocks grey but shiney a bed a hall behind the figure of a large giant man and green tinge aside the white flashing so fast that it's obviously how it's burned a place in my presence and memory… a time another time where I was locked in the house of the witches I know she was spraying these strange looking inhalent prescriptions into my mouth and nose while sleeping. .. never have been able to catch a deep breathe .. another time had me trapped in her house with trance music on TV screen blaireing so loud as the stars on screen syked me as if coming towards me or me falling into she performed in a black thick heavy cloak and climbed all over kitchen table and chairs coffee tables i noticed how she set everything up as she sat me on her couch and covered all windows with thick blankets before all this I know something's off just for that fact that I just SAT there she waved a strange scented paper across my face and once again thats all i remember…. I remember every time I slept there real life night mares not like ones I had had as a child . These ones woke me up panting for air . One of them I was being attacked and mobbed by black dogs with very detailed shiney eyes . Another was me hearing gun shots arreying throughout the house I woke up and purposely landed myself on the floor for cover. … My first strange thing was my 21st birthday the day after … while on computer at my house last thing I remember 2pm checking email next thing woke up 9pm in my bed in my bedroom sat up noticed I opened my mouth and all the skin around my lips were chapped dry burning and stiff . I noticed that I was in my clothes not pajamas and in my bed I threw the covers off and tiny white glitter all over in my bed sheets noticed vomit down the side of my bed and noticed a pen busted ink everywhere my big candle has been burning for hours then I also felt violated and recalled seeing an arm of a person who had a distinct scar I just seen from elbow down and black garment.. I recalled feeling being touched by a hand in private area.. I immediately went for the telephone to call police guess what cordless phone dead .. 2005 . Cell phones were still not a big thing I had a land line .. I noticed as minutes went by my mind started losing sense .. few days went by and this witch before I realized she was the danger some how or another next thing you know she's packing my place up and moving me in with her strange thing it was to get away from who ever done that to me must have slipped into backdoor that day very wooded by back door turns out during the move to her I SEEN the distinct scar! Yeah trapped under her roof for seven days was the worst experience that has taken years to even grasp the reality of the crimes that have been taken against me.. it's strange because she mentioned all the weird stuff to me I had only known her two weeks before suddenly things happened at my residence and within four weeks she's basically Brain washed me kept everything I owned and clearly has some mind trance on me when I don't even believe stuff like that and the fact of anyone trancing me pisses me off that I would have been defenseless.. she mentioned that where I lived a best friend lived there but died there she told she was stalked by her TV and finally made it go away its strange because after months went by suddenly that's all that's happening happened to me. I remember a time she was on my computer and mentioned (before anything was even happening to me) she mentioned “oh give me your social security number and I'll make stop” I can't believe it but I GAVE IT TO HER ! I remember another time for three days she had me jaming my finger down my throat and making me throw up .. I don't know why I went for that ! . I remember when the strange thing with TV happened I could simply move my fingers (as if I knew ?sign? language) and it would make the screen switch from getting stuck .. it feels like when I look trying to watch TV it's like the things on the screen are a mirror of my actual self straight down to the facial muscles… I remember at the beginning when I would eat I felt like I was being watched .. I m sure the finger down my throat was probably prep so she could give me the pitcher of water I drank at her house.. another joke woke up from a sleep woke up parched for thirst there in front of me was a plastic pitcher with a lid a a small glass (probably to keep track of how much I consumed) I remember having that thought instinct don't drink it.. but I thought thats obsurd .. there were strange spell and bindings books time life material around her house lots of furniture hand painted black big mirrors around lots of small bottles of liquids i don't know why i didn't comprehend to run . I walked away from there with the clothes on my back all my childhood toys year books all my stuff like baseball glove baby Dolls my pogs all my little toys and clothes Gone every single little thing that could have connected me back to myself gone ! I remember a couple times I was silently threatened by a gun from her one night she sent me to grab something out of her vehicle even then oddly a car driving by with passenger shooting a gun .. it's not that kind of neighborhood .. Ive feared police since then I TREMBLE LIKE IM GOING TO BE APPREHENDED she's taking me to a couple places where computers are gutted and laying all over she's shown me a basement full of receivers stereos TV s everywhere like a Library shelves in colum lines and rows of equipment… once during that week I was trapped in her house heard whispers and felt being watched.. nothing to eat or drink only thing in all kitchen cabinets was a Large case of canned green beans.. she had lots of stained glass in sink a big old microwave from like the invention of microwave time in her freezer bare empty except for these prescription inhalers the nozzles looked like mini funnels and the refrigerator that pitcher of water .. she told me strange things when she was around me about air from vents to kill people.. she has 15 alias in her criminal file. When she moved out of that house a boyfriend of her said omg isn't that crazy all the cameras and speakers she had in the walls and ceilings .. I acted like I knew because at the same time it was more of a relief because I knew she tried to make me go crazy and think I was hearing stuff . I remember being woke up another time by someone grabbed my ankle in a way to starle me and I was told to go cut the grass and guess what large thick lines of some powder that when I had to run over it with the lawnmower clouds of something to burn my upper respiratory again .. it all started I used to be a good singer .. I don't do that anymore . Something about blue rubber medical gloves scare me .. don't know what happened to me .. but her other nickname is Taz like the crazy tasmanian devil cartoon strange thing it took a couple months to even get the full effect I know I was poisoned this is not something that happened over night the damage .. I walked away in what seems a bliss and as soon as the danger of what ever poison I consumed rain through and soaked in I couldn't catch my breathe deeply and I was adjetated irritable and my body trembles Inside throughout my entire body .. I also found on my computer a emoji chart back before those were a thing like I said cell phones early 2005 not really a thing.. anyway there i found a chart that was labeled “Jenas chart on Alden” it seems like since i met her to this day I'm controlled by this wack job it's strange i feel like this person is literally trying to literally walk around and truly think she is me . I noticed that during the physical reactions I had from what ever poison I was given that my internal physical reaction it's MYSTERIOUSLY directed to her while my facial expressions are a complete disconnect from me I'm happy my face is locked in mad I get mad my face is locked in smile (which is not helpful). This person ruined my entire existence and I cry a lot I was such a good person nice to everyone I wasn't a show off. I was quite not a crowd or big friends list. Genuinely sweet and cheerful love animals id give the shirt off my back .. was left with nothing I literally have not one phone call daily. . My 5senses were attacked first.. I went to the places I was taught as a child to run to . If you're in trouble go to police .. yea that was actually scary.. they try to surround me and throw away the key .. more dramatized I don't know why everyone wouldn't expect me to be in shock and over reacting after escaping from under the roof of those things a constant week of shut from the world and not even comprehending how I willingly left my home.. everything happened so fast .. so I go to the doctor what do they try to do when I say hey I can't breathe and my throat doesn't feel right soon as I mention a witch oh man same scary thing in the snap of a finger in time suddenly I'm surrounded about to be locked and throw away key ! Absolutely discouraged . So now I can't function and do the things most people do to just forget everything and turn on the radio or TV and on top of that can't breathe and always smell strange scents. Dizzy . Feel like I'm worn out my motor skills are off I reach for a light switch and swipe up or down and miss it out of my reach by the tips of my fingers .. reach for a door knob and run my hand or wrists into . Hurts 🤕 me. I've tripped and fell over my other foot several times.. put my hands out to guard from the fall down there was a time it felt like I was being drugged by a Force once I slide at least 12 feet across the entire living room floor and I fell gracefully it's not like I was jogging or running full speed so there's no reason I slide that far .. I've clearly and still do catch smells of stale dead flowers at certain family members house none of them talk to me and we were close it's almost like during all this I noticed the look people who knew me before looked at me and it was like they wanted to cry .. I get pain on my skull all the time especially on the knots behind my ears when my scalp sweats. I feel like my sinuses and temples are heavy and stiff there's times I've woke up and my entire skull is numb it's scary . Times my full arms are numb it's weird to pick them up with the other arms . I get serious cramps in my calves and sometimes my ankles try to turn out ward it hurts .. I get serious abdominal pain monthly . It's either diarrhea or constipation… my tongue is always feeling like it's slightly numb and times that the roof of my mouth is cold like a dead body . I constantly have a chemical taste and constantly notice a chemical smell behind my nose that's sitting in the back of my throat in the area where like if you were swimming and choked on water .. stomach hurts at times in a feeling like it makes me lazy my wrists relaxed are always bent in and fingers and top of my hand clinched like I'm retart . The whatever taste saturated in my tongue and flesh it has an expanding feeling to it . Noticed that we were marching in the beginning like soldiers listening to my songs in the beginning of all this … my friends and I would march other than walk makes me realize now looking back that must have been subliminal sounds under songs .. I take it as the stalkers way of separating me from my associates and blocking my ways to tell police or to blind me and deafen me from a doctor saying hey they noticed that I was chemically poisoned

They follow you, they watch u, they listen to you, they eventually truly think they are u, they can't go on with life knowing that they met someone really nice,

Can you give me direction .. I been turning to the holy Bible day one . This is not my whole story by far and I can clearly notice that once I gain air weight past the area that I'm sincere is damaged internal area of my swallow vocal and back of nose if I can catch a deep breath and it's strangely weird my mind has to be clear and exact where I've forgotten about her then as I get a sigh of relief capable to catch a deep breath and tuck under them I notice one of the scents that was cause by her not a fragrance of anything of my friend or family before meeting her then wam she is just right I feel like I feed it my air seriously.. it's almost certain to me that the strange drink she set me up to drink some where inside me just sits in a pocket or area like a pool of fluid and just maybe I breathe it out and suck the potent smell of it right back in . Like seriously I kept notes because I seen the effect of the hidden chemical I consumed it's strange because once I drank it I felt it coat my mouth and never seem to get it off I've got an entire duffel bag full of five star notebooks more writing and used more paper than my entire kindergarten through 12th grade classes I've ran pens out of ink I've never ran a pen out of ink I've got like 20 I kept them all I even have a pair of jeans that I used a marker to write what I observed when I was without a sheet of paper the duffel bag is heavy and packed the words on paper aren't organized some pages I've wrote all around the original words that I quickly had to jot down before I forgot .. then I add words in trails all around those words words going in all directions like a trail to follow and read i can pull open a page only i can explain the proof i spen two years roughly basically forced to write what happens daily to ke because i noticed it isnt stopping the person got me may -june 2005 then by November when things started kicking in negatively and the trance bliss wore off .. guess what of course the witch had to serve 18 months in prison so i couldn't even go to her to say hey what the hell arr u do to me . She'd send letters from prison basically taunt me talking strange about stuff that hidden catch like once about a coffee bean field once about rice … I couldn't physically grasp a utensil to write back mind would freeze go blank. Anytime she'd call or I'd get a letter all the evil syke attacks strange controlled thoughts would just stop so when she got out I thought ok she ll fix this . Because I know it is some form of craft I don't know any witch stuff totally never knew it was actually real I know at some point she cruised through my counsious used photo memories of mine seems to keep flashing using trigger points areas in my home town just drive ING around my mind is just being shuffled around .. so she gets out and pulls this no reason cusses me out befriends me and if I can get a word in at all she would tell me that I know what I did when in reality completely confused I didn't do nothing to her there's times in her presence she'd whisper to someone else when they asked who I was she'd always say oh I remember Alden “ then she'd tell them something in their ear and they'd both laugh and then who ever it's be would say oh yea about what ever she'd tell Them so when she spuratically yelled and accused me of nothing and chase me away so i then did start writing . She was 100 percent Ludacris and fake . Untrue she did make comments about how'd you make it so long how are u not dead or in jail or nut hut . She completely stalk me to cause me to go crazy and somehow and I know the grace of the Lord has managed to help me hold from unraveling flying off the handle . Now it's down to the internal damage I'm down to the grit of the main causes watered down the motions happen in patterns and waves I haven't studied that part of it I always forget because if I applied this last part I know by use of calendar I could maybe probably know when to expect the symptoms the run in a cycle in side moves place to place circles around one part of my body fights it off and it's chilling in the other its just back and forth circulateing she's made comments that I'll never beat her but it's pretty even there because if I really had time and funds and got dedicated I Could prove it I could expose her but there's times in the beginning where she'd ask my fears and in 2005 when she went to prison November 2005 . It have these scary feelings come over me just when I'd be maybe outside or just certain times just letting me that I was being killed sometimes I feel like maybe I'am because nobody ever responds to the truth I say or when I prove it on the spot this strange smell and game of memory .. I can't clear my throat it's like if I use the broken part it's only when I talk about what happened to me and then it releases the poison in the air rather than me having suffocation in silence 🤐 and it's painful and cuts the brain off seems like when the hidden hits certain nerves it strikes past pain to anger I don't know I could keep going I could organize all this and actually tell on this but in ways I know she'd feel the fact she was losing and suddenly I wasn't the loser she was losing because of the simple fact that my air isn't passing to her which means the dead smell to me is noticeable to my surroundings and the chemical trick smell to make a person in front of me not remember the smell they just caught .. but im serious that theres no way this trick witch will go to prison and get caught i know I'd more than likely get hit ive met a few of her strange crew and they are creepy and control something bigger than im aware of

Will my parents go to hell if I don't wear hijab, they tried to convince me and they provided it to me but I don't want to wear it?

Shined a blue light from her right eye while facing me and I felt like I was stuck on stupid looking at this blue light in her eye it was dark outside and we were standing in her front yard.i felt frozen and stuck looking at it she whispered good bye Alden. I don't remember much after that. Before she MYSTERIOUSLY got me to let / watch her and help her pack me up like she did that day . She told me this creepy story about the person who lived where I was living.. that morning I just remember for some reason my gold thin chain and cross was on her dash and my very first good piece of jewelry a ring I got for my 18th birthday it's like this woman didn't even have to rob me for some reason my state of mind the entire time that month I was around her and just met her I was completely stuck on blank . And she kept whispering the same things to me … like “this is the merry Christmas prank”…. She'd whisper “trust me “ all the time …. she'd say repeatedly “your so innocent I hate doing this” …. she said to me one day out of the blue out loud directly to not all playing tricks secretly one day out of the blue she looked and me and “I got it ! I know what your name is ! I'll call you ———”! And I don't even know what that word was because I don't remember it because it was not a word that made sense no knowledgeability it was not English it was a mixed jumbled made up WORD ! it really bothers me that I didn't even stand up for myself .. if someone right now or ever had talked crazy like this woman did or done the weird things in front of me to me or even when I was sleeping I would get up and walk away or things said that were off the wall I would and should have said ..,, what are you talking about? That goes to show my state of mind was completely being manipulated and altered and that alone pisses me off to even accept the fact that regardless who what when where or why ..! I don't even like the thought that I was tampered with! And it ligitly pisses me off that when I tried to go about my business doing everything I had ever done in my life before, just go along my way I'd put my headphones in to start listening to music and sing along but my hands instead of me singing the energy seemed to flip my fingers like I was doing sign language when I don't know sign language… strange thing a song I've practiced and known my whole life word for word and know every beat to the song while it's going I can't remember a single word to sing along with the song … I notice where the background music is off . Even where the singer itself is hanging off what seems to be a whole different pitch sound tempo. I turn the song off and can recite all the words again ….there was a point in time I couldn't even physically grasp a pen or pencil my thoughts go blank . I used to write down the words of songs as a growing kid in the 90s just to sing along id rewind the cassette tape over and over to get the words down I'd learn a song until I was full blown sick of it. This creep witch aka serial killer sexual stalker one day is going to get what she deserves. To hurt a Nice loving person that didn't do a thing that's my biggest problem is not understanding why she did this to me. It's strange I just turned 40 and I've watched me slowly die .. I'll use the restroom and flush the toilet and be washing my hands and not even remember if I flushed the toilet… but at the same time if my memory is failing me then why do I remember such detail of everything from the day I met her almost 20 years ago.. in the beginning I remember times where I'd be just talking to someone and out of nowhere my teeth will evenly clash down on each other flat bottom out . My swallow does not function correctly I can completely tell something is broke maybe a vocal cord or a muscle line under my tongue.. there's times when I'll be talking and manage to bite my tongue in places underneath that physically even trying to get the areas anywhere touching my teeth completely impossible.. I don't know if I've suffered a stroke under her mind phased she put me in or had heart attack my jaw flopping all over all the time it aches during COVID in a mask I noticed my mouth always dropped open it's like out of nowhere id catch it open and could feel it had been that way unoticed i didn't register it until the acheing I see floaters all the time.. maybe i think have i suffered a seizure because now even driving on a road in the fall time when leaves are not on trees i don't know why but it triggers something and seeing the sun shine casting the constant quick shadows of the long tree line next to the roadside passing by with the Sun and flutters flickering through it messes with where I cant function in a way . This person has basically smiled in my face and is like what are u going to do about it. It's weird anytime I'd be heading her direction to finally snap out of her control and confront her it's like the closer I get to her house my face goes limp and numb my mind is in complete dissarey in her presence I have to completely think everything through just to Walk or sit my mind I'am completely mindless thought on straight blank

I wish I knew what they want., I know this is the steps taken to permanently damage me and the way in it went

Help me. I finally had enough sense to put together the words in order on Google to find answers to the problem I'm in . Wow 19 years it took I hope someone can direct me because I'm consumed I wear earplugs to have peace at home and work. Not to mention it started with me hearing someone simply sniff in . Or clear their throat . Now over the years it's almost like I watch it live my life for me as if I'm watching a movie about driving and going to work when I'm driving my car and when I'm working the reason I know something's up is because my sight in not in sync with my chest the air in my lungs . Im completely aggravated by something constantly in my way pulling out in my space I'm getting syked constantly but when I watch TV it's like I'm there .. like that's live it's flip flopped my mind set and eye set and sight levels and the speed of my eye movements.

He said he loves me, but why is it difficult for him to leave his wife?